Perfect

You know when I knew it was over? When I picked up your cute fat short little tail I loved so much and let it drop, but it didn't come back up like it used to. I miss that tail wagging and how it always flipped up when I touched it. It was in that instant I knew I'd never see it again, wagging or not. I tried to memorize how it looked down to each little hair, how it felt and all the times it had welcomed me home, but no matter how much I tried, I knew there was no way I could memorize each little hair on you. When Dr. Ruffing asked me where I would like a lock of hair of you from it was hard to decide. I loved every part of you. I loved the silky velvety smoothness of the fur above your head near your ears, but I also loved the shortness of the fur on your legs. You had these two lighter patches on your shoulder and these lighter and darker hairs on your dorsal stripe. I loved how stiff the hairs were also on your tail and I especially loved your squishy prickly velvety muzzle. Each of your toes were super cute too as well as your cute tiny ears where the very tip, about 1cm, flipped up creating the most perfectly beautiful tulip ears. You were perfect in my eyes, all except for the fact that your little body failed you all too soon. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and how much I miss you. I still expect to see you at the bottom of the stairs when I come downstairs. Jay's tail is getting too plumey without you. :) Life just isn't the same without you little buddy. I wish you could've stuck around. At 3:35pm, 20 mins since I felt the last beat of your heart, I felt your spirit had finally realized that it was no longer part of your earthly body and left. I felt you were at peace and I was glad even though it was tough letting go. It gave me some peace knowing you were ok too.